One-day-break

Taken on the first day of camp- meet-up in Astro Bukit Jalil

I am having one-day-break! Left at 7pm and gona go back tomoro by 3pm.
Less than one day actually, but this is better than nothing. hah
And this is not really a very good time to come back, cos noone is free.=(
But it's really nice to see familiar faces and places again. AWW.

Last six days were really hectic.
vocal and dance classes consecutively.
modern dance is not something easy to handle, from the past 5 days experiences, muscle pain again=S haha... but quite fun, the teacher is nice and patient enough to teach these 'woods'.
I can't synchronize my hands/body/legs/head with the fast movements in modern dancing, traditional dance wasn't too tough for me in the past.
Vocal class, there are two teachers, one male and female, and we took turns to let them listen to us,
my main problem now is the 'feel', still lack of that, and I am VERY worried. Never thought singing is such a complicated thing. Maybe I underestimated it.
And another problem, lack of confidence. Always that. Not serious enough, I can't understand why others could be serious and really get into the song during training. I guess I'm a last minute person, so not until the real competition, or maybe rehearsal, I wouldn't be THAT serious, don't wana stress myself up yet. (cos I'm ord stressed=S)
confidence problem, I got more intimidated after listening to everyone during practise.
HOW COULD THEY BE SO GOOD?!
Pub singers, cafe singers, most of them have vocal training since few years ago. WHAT AM I? SHIT HEAD. I feel so lousy. once again.
Talking about pitching, skills, breathing...etc, I am so much worse! O GOD. i AM worried.
BUT BUT BUT. I KNOW I should work hard and do my best! I KNOW. I KNOW. I SHOULD!
and not to forget. 平常心 =) don get affected easily. Be myself.

I know there's many of you who r supporting me, I hope I won't let you all down.
I would just say, all the contestants r GENGGGGG. like SUPER geng. u should watch on TV.
Wish me luck. I need a lot of them thanks=)

Random photos--

We needed to write 'han yu pin yin' for our lyrics so that we can have perfect pronunciation. CLEVER huh.

Some of us. =)
Lunch. no rice. no noodle.
Kehpoh Samson took this photo during vocal class.
Okay, I have assignment to be done. 心情故事=_= haha.
TA~

AHHHHHH

Last day to chat, blog, kehpoh in fb/fs....etc
How am I gona survive without wireless connection there.
And I'm not sure if I should bring my lappie there to watch movies or anything.
Will consider about it first.

One more day

I am moving in to Countryheights, Kajang in one day's time.

This is the map attached. Miss me, go look for me. I HOPE YOU COULD!

Rules and regulations: No friends allowed. and normally we r not allowed to get out from monday to friday. weekends, i m not too sure yet. AH SAD.

I heard it's some sort of apartment or resort-like place, sounds just nice for me.
But... Having to leave my comfortable room, and patpo wanyen n sijia isn't something nice.
And college, these batch of wonderful coursemates. I reli enjoy being with them.
But how. There is not perfection in this world. Something's to be sacrificed.
Excitement, anticipation... yeah i've got them all earlier, but these few days, I just think I should go with the flow without thinking too much. HAHAs=)
btw, i'm curious abt what's gona be taught in the 'camp'/ training period.
I am so gona appreciate what's given cos I know this is a great opportunity to learn something I can't learn in college. It's 'practical work' HAHA.

And yeah, the photos are posted in the asq blog ord, +ve thinking...I look slimmer in the photo! although compared to the others, I'm still like 10kg heavier than the rest. 重量级 you know.

This photo chosen.. hmm. my own comment, I don look THAT 'cute' in real person, but the photos are all chosen by the producer n photographer, they think these r the best of all taken. so.. yeah.
This is really different from others, like ppl are posing those cool/ cute pose...
WHAT's THIS?! HAHA. angry? KEHPOh look. HAHAHHA. okay. that looks like me. round face though.

haha. btw, I am reli touched by all those friends, and of course family who r supporting me always. THANKS a lot. sincerely. I am gona try my best, do my best, and strive for the best!

MUACKSS<3>

Fun

We had fun=)

And it was quite a good experience, as in I got to really see how things work.
you get what i meant...HAHA

<3 ting

This closest cousin of mine, Ting has visited her gorgeous couz days ago.
Have not met her for two years I guess,
but I really am glad that we stil have endless topics to talk about,
she's still so supporting, mature in thinking...
and I will always remember how nice she has been treating me since we were young. =)
<3 hope to see her agen two weeks later when she transits in KL.
i will try hard to sneak out/ ask permission to come out. HAHA

Behind it.

AH.
The issue now is: I AM FAT. And I need to kiambui, seriously.
Cos when ther's comparison with those skinny ones, I look even more gigantic =(
(it's like ther r oni 2 persons who r fat out of all of them)

O yeah, decision made. No backing out.
So what I can do now is appreciate this opportunity given,
thanks for everyone's opinions, they really did help when I was in a dilemma.
and of course to my family who r supporting me since I've made my decision.
I understand not everyone's parents would allow this, especially when lessons are still on.
THANKS, i love you all. <3

Sacrifices are to be made though, of course.
Friends, these gang of friends really brought laughter to me, like everyday.
Voon and Wendy, Munsuet Diana Robin Weijiin... ALL OF YOU! Such nice people and I have made my step to leave them. AH. This is the saddest part, and it is really what I would regret most about atm.

But for that passion of mine, I guess this is the right choice,
and I made myself a promise not to regret about it. forever.

Gona work hard on it, try my best and just follow the flow.
Don't wana stress myself out of hell bcos of this, although frankly speaking, i AM stressed already.
It's really packed, everything's needed to be done in such short period of time, and not to say, PERFECTLY done. WOOSH.
I really need to learn doing things fast and efficient.
Costumes, lyrics, practice, diet... etc.
Hope everything is gona be alright. =)

SMILE. fake-ly. as always. HAHA

=)))))))))))))

never thought this'd happen,
now i have to decide.
to or not to.

think twice x2

=) !!!!

At least there's feeling of being recognized in it.
confidence given, compliments given by him. and also criticisms about the 'fatness' HAHA
I'm already satisfied.
gona work hard for tomorrow first.
And let's see how things go.

Feeling lucky.!!!!

ooooooHHH goshhh

A MEI's conert is TONIGHT!!!
And due to some reasons, which are obvious, I din't find anyone to go with me,
so the plan is cancelled.
I could just blame myself for not being a hot babe. if so, guys d ve wanted to accompany me.
ok. my bad. HAHA
suan le ba. I can save another 88 bucks for something else.

ANDDDD.. OMGGGG
I met vince! he's started working for one week ord.
It reli feels unique and different to see a friend who's working at the age of 19.
And he's graduated from ACCA. GENIUS. as always.
I AM JEALOUSSS!!!! he's earning money and i'm still spending here. =S

annddd OHH gossssssshhhhhh I AM STRESSED!
Haven't really started doing anything for the pile of assignments,
nothing was done according to the plan. AHHHH DEAD DEAD DEAD.
NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

ok. dat's all i wana complain about. I need to recharge my batt for tomorrow. nites ppl

Shijing's hse party

I love this pic taken by myself HAHHAAH

We visited Suriamas for the first time.
I din't think it's as GREAT as how ppl described it to be though.
But it's much cleaner and newer than Mentari, for sure.


ok, the photos.

Us girls See, I am not the best poser afterall. I feel defeated. =S haha

Chen hoe, my classmate for 13 years (except Kindergarten 2), top student in TBS blah blah blah. he's a nice guy (nope he din pay me to say this cos it's true).
Hey Bru peeps, chen hoe isn't as 'innocent' as we thought he was lor. HEHE. Take your guess. (Nothing serious lah haiyoh. wat r u thinking..tsk tsk)
Thanks wanyen for accompanying me to the party. You really have been a great companion since last year.
Us agen, playing all kinds of games with the poker cards, and finding it interesting to play new Korean style poker HAHA. Those two girls on the left are Koreans, wanyen can communicate (slightly) with them in Korean language neh. HAHA

Last but not least, thanks for the invitation shijing=) okay, STING. new name huh. =)

He made me look even fatter. such a skinno. (skinno= skinny person - by spy)

It was a fun night. =)

Sijia's bdy celeb.

This new place, Bubba Gump which is located at the right side of Sunway Pyramid's entrance has really cool interior design!
That's what attracted us to go in and try the food, and get a big hole burnt in our wallets.
(Jia, no need to feel guilty, we went to TRY the food, not purposely for YOUR birthday Hoh. HAHHA)
Overall, the food is pretty okay, but it's really overpriced. that's my own opinion.
We ordered 5 main courses, 1 salad, 1 dessert & 3 drinks, shared among 6 of us, and the amount on the receipt left us jaw-dropped.

The bday gal with a happy face =)

All of us

Wanyen with the menu
Jia looks great here. O yeah, we need to just flip the signboard to take orders, or if we need any assistance from the waiters or waitresses. RED=stop, BLUE (Run forrest run)= go. Interesting huh.
Jia & I
BURP. stomach felt like bursting already after eating the ZEN chocolate marshmellow cheese cake, only AFTER eating the cake.
The food r not reli in big portion,
jus din't really worth it to dine in there,
yumcha sessions, should be fine as the drinks r quite nice.

bah. u guys can go try too, can take nice photos in that place though.

birthday pyramid

Happy 22nd old lady! HAHHAA.

pyramid, let it grow 'higher'.
hope u enjoyed the celebration, especially the part when you had to bite the candle out from the cake. HAHAHHAHA. wanyen is the best!HAHAHAHa

and happy 21st to yenfang too! cyah tomoro=)

muahahaa

Nearly forgotten to post these souvenirs I've got frm voon n hoang.
One from Japan n the other from Vietnam.
Thanks a lot for it=)
As I ve said, I really have not much idea what to get for you al from Brunei,
you just can't find much 'souvenirs' from there.

The owl keychain voon got from Hokkaido, according to her, owl is treated as the god or goddess, it's smething that the people respect.
We actually went through 'lucky draw' to get this. HAHA
creative voon.
This is a sushi plate (sort of) Hoang got for us in Vietnam, he said he remembered that we liked the plates in a japanese restaurant that's why he thought of us when he saw these plates in a pottery factory or somewher like dat. haha=) Thanks!

And it was Model Hunt which was held in the previous college I was in, Taylors main campus.
Saw a number of lenglois n no lengzhais, okay, maybe one. The other day, among one of the days to Pyramid, we met up with Lihua who's currently studying in Monash, taking food science. My ex-housemate in My Place Apartment.=)

And with the old friends, we had dinner in Canton-i, porridge n noodle restaurant, recommended!

Just two days ago, this is the first fine dining I got invited to this year,
thanks to our housemate who's a Hospitality student,
she provided us vouchers in which each of them costs RM15 if we r to buy,
thank eiu man man =)
I am even fatter after the meal. HAHA

EWW. starter: vege kebab. I DON LIKE IT! I was looking for the meat until voon me it's actually VEGE kebab. AHHHH


This was the main course of the day, roasted duck leg with onions and potatoes.
I miss the lamb shank I had last year! That was the best of all! SLURPPp


Dessert: Eggtart-like. NICE.

Friday night. pizza. movie. ice cream. ice lemon tea . karaoke.
I found a new place to sing! I know I may be a lil late to notice this place,
but yeah, i just got bk not long ago okay. HAHA

Amp square, the interior design is pretty nice, but it has some similarities to redbox,
maybe bcos of the color,
as it's kinda newly opened, K-Lunch (11am- 2pm) is free for now, everyday.
Its midnight karaoke session is a lot cheaper than redbox n neway, (eg. redbox's is 26+ for weekdays, n ampsquare's is 5+ for weekdays)
c the difference?
the other hours r cheaper too, ard one time cheaper. (eg. afternun time, redbox's 18+ for weekdays, ampsquare's 8+)
Just trying to compare the prices here. HHA
Songs selection is not too bad, although the system is not as specific and perfectly made.
But acceptable lah. service oso okay.


btw.
I need to budget, spending too much in weekends.

But to comfort myself, I am not gona spend so much when assignments due dates r coming nearer,
and Munsuet, if I got in that, I can spend more after that. HAHA! PRAYYYY

FAT

I have been eating too much! STOPPPPPPPP !!!
NOOOOOOOO!!!!
hahaa......
i can't sleep, dat's y i m blogging this meaningless post here.

Where can I find motivation to go on diet?
I have seen a few skinny n gorgeous girls during Model Hunt that day,
I was browsing through ppl's pictures in fb...
Most of the gals r slim, or even they r not,
they do not look like an auntie like me=(
AHHHHH.
I don wana get fatter!

Who wana go?

A Mei's concert is coming soon on 20th march!!
Me is looking for someone to go with me!
Anyone interested to go to the concert too?

the cheapest tic is RM88, still available when I asked about it on Sunday in Sg wang.

WHO wana go?!!!!! tell me asap pls thanks=)

Upcoming holidays

YUHOOOOOOO

when it's about holidays, I am awake early! it's only 7am! HAHA.
guess what, I fell asleep with my make up on at 10+ las night after watching Beverly Hills Chihuahua. HAHA.
Btw, Monday is a public holiday

Okay, here am I to report my holidays for this year.
Mid sem break for sem 3- early May to mid of May. ard 2 wks.
Sem break in btwn sem 3 & 4- end of June until early Aug

Mid sem break for sem 4- mid sep to early oct
Year break- starting on end of Nov

I wana buy tix asap la! but then friends r comin on May,
I am thinking if I should stay here and join them or go back to Brunei...
but if I go back in May, it's quite a short duration of time until July's holidays...
I am not sure if there r any plans coming up for the semester break in July,
so should I or should I not buy tickets first?
Early birds get to eat the worms... but but.. but... AHHHHH I DONO LAR

will decide that later. haha =)

glowwwwy? love this picture taken. it's wanyen's idea to use those bulbs as 'tools' haha.
luckily we r still alive now.

TA~

My color is gold

Gold

You know what's right and what's wrong. You are cheerful and out going. It's hard for you to find the one you want, but once you find the right person, you won't be able to fall in love again for a long time.

Back to uni

Attended Marketing class this morning in main campus,
can't imagine we have to go there by taxi every Tuesday.
So troublesome=S

Only Marketing and broadcasting lecture today,
hmm.. in principles of broadcasting, we r asked to talk about the reason why we chose masscomm, lemme think properly first. I just simply picked the most obvious reason I ve got in mind, I wasn't good in sciences and I enjoyed involving in activities in high skul. lemme think more about it. I guess I should. HAHA=)

These r some of the pics taken on the first day of lecture.

i need to sleep, class at 10 later.
nites. =)

Getting myself prepared.

prepared for the first day of sem 3.
here we go again,
it's time to concentrate on studies now, after relaxing for three months.

Let's hope for the better in everything starting from now on=)

SMILE...
=)

=(

I am still not letting myself out of this yet,
but I have to, sooner or later.

Why do I have to try so hard on it?
Trying this hard hasn't been worthing it,
Trying too hard couldn't help it but making it worse.

It has been my fault, since the arise of every problem.
Why.
No matter how hard I try to fix it, I ruin it at last.
Maybe it's meant to be like this.
I don't know what to do anymore.
Eventually I am treated like a piece of shit instead of the princess I was.
Look at me,
I totally look like a fool.
Being a piece of shit is still not enough,
this piece of shit is being stepped over and over again,
until it's smashed.
it could feel the pain, cos it's being stepped on.

Never ever would it be fixed.
Because noone has ever cared about it.
It's alright.
Why couldn't I stop bothering about it.
SOON I will be.
I will be fine.