Mistakes

I didn't know what I have been thinking or doing recently.
Seemed that I ve done loads of mistakes unawarely.
What had happened to me?
I have been thinking a lot these two days,
but at last came out with nothing useful for the conclusion.
Damn!

I ve been so UNgenerous.
Just little bit of mistakes X ve done,
why should I treat X back like this?
How about the loves and cares X has given us through these months?
It's not gona be so easily forgotten.
That's just not me.
However, what I m doing these few days may hurt X deeply,
I clearly knew what I ve been doing,
I just wana let her know that X has hurt us too these few moments.
Honestly, I was being really cruel,
the first time in my life to treat a good friend of mine who ve done a small mistake in this way,

But.....
What about us?
Why leave us behind after asking us to accompany u?
Why leave us aside when u got someone for u and wanted us back again in the opposite circumstance?
NO, I DON WANT THIS.
SERIOUSLY,
What I ve been doing was just to make everything clear,
to tell u I DON LIKE U BEING LIKE THIS TO US.

Thinking back again,
How could I ve been so cruel to this good friend of mine?
I don't dislike X even X's with someone I dislike.
Instead, I still love X, as my good friend.
It's no jealousy, I knew that well.
Where was that niceR person X thought I was?
Was there some sort of evil spirit lurking deep within me?
I decided to stop everything I m doing now,
THIS ISN'T the REAL me
I don wana ruin everything before thinking about it carefully.
Luckily, matter hasn't turn DAT worse.
When everything is clarified and over,
I m on top of the world again.
=)

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Dear XXX,
complaints complaints complaints,
I knew I ve driven u crazy recently,
sorry.

SORRY SORRY SORRY...
actually SORRY is useless,
it doesn't help much after mistakes are really done,
DONe means DONE.
Some apologies are given over small matters,
ther's no need for that.
"I m improving myself for you",
I know u really meant it.
(Touched, grateful+guilt)


As you know, impatience is an inborn personality of mine,
Also,
I tend to not accept criticisms,
you know what i meant,
I know you are telling me what you really are thinking of the incidents,
but...
Support from you was all I needed and expected,
How about comforts?
Why instead of those,
what I got was some kinda criticisms which could really turn me even down?
Is there lack of understandings between us?
Need you here,
when will the day come?

Forgiveness is important for mistakes done,
the feeling of total forgiveness will be totally great.
Forgiveness is always in us,
didn't you realize that?
That's a good thing isn't it?

We have been feeling sorry for each other,
and I know you are not feeling good for that too.
I didn't know what to do.

*You will learn the most from the mistakes you make*
Hope this is true,
we still ve much to learn.
For the sake of everything


-At any given time, you know the right thing to do. Trust yourself completely-

Intro to MY PLACE APARTMENT

MY PLACE APARTMENT
SS15/8 Subang Jaya
47500
SELANGOR
WEST MALAYSIA

Dear ppl interested in knowing about My Place Apartment Units Under Taylors,

(wif air con and water supply+electricity(limit to Rm200 per mth)
Single Room: RM500+
Double------RM400+
3----------RM420 eh.
The rooms are reli small and old..but yet, I m enjoying myself here, cos it's near to school, u can just wake up maybe like ten to 15 min before skul starts. It's just opposite the college, with a block of shops blocking in the middle.

Before we came, we were amazed by how the hostel/apartment looks in the photo,
so high class, so like a nice holidays spot. But when we reached here, yeah, ther's disappointment in us. However, it's stil good in some ways.

Complain first lah..
erm..The water supply is small in the master bedroom, esp in our unit. And now, ther's no more water flowing out. For the shower thingy. We complained before, but they said that's the best they could do. And the cleaners just simply mop n broom the house, those corners filled with dust are never cleaned before. We requested them to change the curtains, as they are old n dusty already, then the woman came,
and with a ' Need- to -change -meh' face spoke to me" The curtains are not dirty LEhh", LEhh = not willing to change lah? Aiya...so ma fan one. Anyways, I m quite satisfied with SOME of the maintenance work. AND it's REALLY expensive OKAY? If ur parents are not DAT worried of u like out parents did, then u can really just rent the units or houses or rooms(private) out there, they are also nearby skul, and a lot cheaper with better facilities. Like szeyee's, hers is single room, air-conditioned, water supply+electricity +wireless included in the rental fee. Ours electricity+water supply limit is RM200 per mth eh!~ And wireless stil have to apply by ourselves...TMD.. Also, in the first few months, it was darn noisy downstairs even in midnight (as u noe, KL ppl don sleep early), we even heard Koreans fighting and throwing glass bottles there.

Good ones ah..
em..=S not DAT much. Orh, here comes some lame ones, there are cute kittens and cats around ( downstairs), but when u bring the cat into ur unit to play with them. (IF caught), ur in trouble. Fill in some kinda form, n get 'recorded' for duin somthing bad. and when u exceed three times, ur OUT, deposits MAKAN-ed, n it's just ur lose. so...SEE? I wanted to talk about GOODs, but....*thinking hard about the goods*--em.
wat else ah...The cleaners are frenli despite their laziness. They even told me i got FATTER- *kehpoh KIA!!* hurt lea~Hehz...Oh, got one more..very important one.My room is COOL (temperature), haha...really comfortable lah, although many ppl who came visiting our room complained its too small. I love its temperature cos ngam ngam our room is in the right position. There is a block in front blockin the sunlight comin into our room. There' s still light, but not dat PANAS sunlight in here. =D luckily~ wat else..

Argh...hard to think of +ve points anymore..laziness~ swie..ask me if ur reali interested in stayin here, esp the juniors..=D

Some photos=D

And ppl as tidy as me ll have their study desk nEAT like this...don be jealous!
AHAAAAA...actualli it has already

Lack of time/Thx

Had mock exam today,
felt my head cracking when I was looking at the paper,
cos I was thinking hard, but my mind was still blank~
u understand that feeling don't you?
This is what I get for not getting any preparation for it.
Actually the college's intention for this mock is to 'force' us to start doing revision,
in another way round, to let us try sitting for it...

Really I m HUO GAI. (for not appreciating the time I ve to do revision for exams)

ewen n yanyee have been very nice to me.
*They wake me up ---with FULL patience, u cant imagine how much patience they need to do that!
*They scold me (maybe not scoldings, just a stricter way of talking to me) for being too not-serious with my studies, n I m grateful for that. cos this let me think of my mom NIAN-ing me when I am not concentrating in studies in sec skul. But I ve gave her too much disappointments n I regretted for everything. Yanyee n ewen lemme think of my mom, n it's not easy to have friends who can take care of you like your mom does. SO I M SUPER LUCKY TO VE THEM WIF ME.
*We get along quite well, or should I say there's almost no argument in anything.
*Laughters are brought in the atmosphere with the existence of those two.
*Whenever they r going somewhere or have any nice things, they would not leave me alone.
MANY more..

Tomorrow me yanyee n ewen are going to Yiqian's brother bdy party,
We didn't have any idea on what to buy for a guy...
so at last, we decided on FOOD..
some kinda food,
but still,
I m a bit worried that THAT thing d be too HAN SUAN,
but seriously, I think the most important is the heart,
not the price of the present.
I was kinda speechless when they made up the decision on the present actually,
so I didn't know what to say,
and I thought I was acting too weirdly,
it's just because people don't follow what I want,
so I get unsatisfied and got my mood turned down?
I m such a dumb ass.
I should change my behaviour,
because sometimes I really don't know when is the appropriate time to ve the right mood.
As my own emotions may influence others too.
And I don't hope to spoil others' mood like this.
I realised deep inside my heart,
there's still holiday mood...
no 'study mood' indeed..at all~

Reminder to SPY: IT'S TIME TO STUDY! seriously, no more time for you.
After all these exams, then it's time for you to enjoy. JUST work HARD for THESE 2 months...ONLY 2 MTHS..pls pls pls..simpeiyi, I beg u!
(OMG, I was sounding retarded and abnormal..talking to myself like this.~ *scared..)

Full of thoughts

SAY hi to the cute girl, Jyn a.k.a Jiani!

Went out wif her 4 the first time yesterday~
She jus look so sweet n nice, n well-disciplined..
dats the impression she gave me.
all NICE. or mayb near to perfection...

Then met her in Vbal Club..yeah..then kehpoh kehpoh..
n found we can talk a lot of things together..
had so much fun being wif her

I hate her height, she s REALLY tall,
y not contribute some to me..
haiz.=(
hah=D

Better stop talking good about GIRLS,
yanyee kept saying I m les recently
cos I m not,
so I don wana be said like that! HAHA

Anger?Not-Dissappointment?kinda

Problematic~
haha..
angerA~
'surprises'
walkin off...
leaving us..
wifout dat person
come to xx
cold~
nt feelin like respondin..
worry..
..cnues..
worse?
dunno..
go naturally..
time ll tell everythin..

don feel good..
stop this..
pls..
back to how it was..
quickly~

ve i overdone it?
hope not.
wat else ..can xx do..
strong feeling---
sumtin out of expectation mite happen.
good or bad?
?????

ve a lot of thoughts now
dunno how 2 express it in writing.
in short
wish u al d best dude

RojakZ

I miss secondary school times terribly~
Thinking back, I then realised that I haven't been really appreciating the moments,
There's no rewind button in our life 'machine', so..
The only thing I could do now is to keep them as a memory eternally.
Been back for a performance in my last last hols,
Unwillingness struck me actually when I was requested to perform ZHONG GUO HUA from SHE, n moreover, the solo part from Ella, I wasn't good in rap-ing,
but I took the challenge after being convinced by Yew yew...(cos I luv her, so I did as wat she told me to...)
She said not everyone ll have the chance to go back to their school for performance,
so I better appreciate the chance given..
so yeah, off i went on the stage, (no la, i was given half a day to prepare~)
BUhhh..done wif this topic...(sorry for the CRAps..i din noe wat to write liao~)

This is also taken during my las las hol back~
Below shows the most trendy(esp her hairstyle) tcher in my skul..
hehe=D
think her hubby is selling hair products thingy~

This is drawn by me, yanyee, n three other boys..
COOL uh?
praise us a lil le..
it's stil in our skul now..
Stil remember it's a 100 contestants comp~
memorable..
our hands got 'hardened' by paints..(cos we kehpoh used our hands to paint-faster mahh..
efficiency know o not?~ HAHAXD)
anyways, we jus feel proud that we can still c our work when we r back to ex-skul...
not much else..
Title: Unity-Peace-Love
The middle part of the whole skul..
Actually, when I first came to Taylors, many gave me a feeling that they r ashamed of themselves cos they r from Chinese skul,
WAT THE HELL?
Chinese skul DIU LIAN MEH?
then go for plastic surgery lah..
turn urself into an ang moh FOREVER,
n u wont ve to be so paiseh to be a chinese~
F*ck off! I HATE THESE PPL..
Most of them know how to speak chinese but they NEVER spoke,
until so many months, then I heard them speaking,
then surprisingly, they ARE from chinese school,
n they NEVER admitted about it~

OKAY, stop talkin about THEM..
make me feel like PUKING on their face



This meant a lot to me...
Every single one is done by one person..
1*1* stars.
Thank YOU

Have been complaining much to him recently...
I m sorry~Just being too much like a complain queen~

Took this specially to show yiqian, but i din bring the phone back or transfer the pic into my lappie last time...now i ve got it, took it by myself in a restaurant in Yayasan..
SHOW OFF about bru mosque..
the 'onion-like' thingy is made of gold neh..
n noone ever climbed up n Korek it eh?
weirdoessssssss
When I c this Egg Pudding Milk Tea,
can't help missing Brunei's one,
c, the pudding is SOAKED in the milk tea, WHOLE BIG PIECE!
n last few months back, I saw an Easy Way stall nearby my house n decided to make a try..
******KEKkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk!!********
here is the conversation:-
Me: Uncle, did u forget to put the pudding?
Uncle: em...lemme c ah..
Me: ...*stared at him wif loads of ???? in my mind*
Uncle: *holding the cup high up* Noohh nohhh...c, I DID put the puddings!*pointing to the 'sliced' pieces(jus a few pieces) floating in the milk tea~ DUH!
Me: Oh.Okay...Thank u uncle

This is the difference between the quantity of 'goods' given by the sellers in Bn n My.
Similar occassion happened in Japanese Restaurants,
salmons are cut thick like hell in Excapade,
n what happened here is, u get paper-'thinness' salmons..-_-''



My dream car~ owner of 7816, I stole ur pic-think u took it in NZ eh?)
but the thing is- not many passengers can be fit in eh..
black n lime green is the nicest!

This is my idiotic sis in NZ....
I blame her for guiding me too much in everything..
so I feel so helpless without her here now~
=(
P.s my housemates said she looks like the 超级女生 周笔畅...haha.got meh?
dun think so~
I re-opened the mails sent by my friends last few weeks..
n saw THESE..
how we looked 9 months back~
HORRIBLE? BETTER?
yeah..all included
Bel was fairer n younger before, now more mature...HAHA!! OLD BEL BEL!
Edwina hair has grown longer, n she looks nicer now...but stil stayed cute~
Others, almost the same..
I m not gona mention me n ewen..
u ll c by urself~
*SObbbb..... =(

WOW!!!!!!!!!!!!!! COOL CRAZY HAIR!
din noe my hair looked like this?
*I m comforting myself rite now...don gimme any comments about it! I WARN U! *AHEMM~
O yeah.WANLIN, DON EVER WEAR UR SPECS AGAIN, or else I ll FALL IN LOV WIF U, cos u look so PRETTY wif it..
Erm..in college
Outside college~(fatter though) The photo above is taken about 3/4 months before..
n this-recently~

My Bn frens ll be like asking 'Peini, u wear makeups to skul everyday in KL ah?'
try askin my frens here...LOL, they ll explain it to u~
c how LA4 TA4 I m in college,
yeah..maybe one in a million times I d wake up early(accidentally)
then I ll apply some mascara to keep my eyes 'open' a bit,
or to be a little more confident( not reli actually)
I normally walk looking downwards when I m alone..
cos of X- confidence lah~
SO FAT SO SHORT SO MESSY~
HAIZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
so ke-lian..
i Kelian myself..
Sobbb...Sniff..

3 -days holidays

Too many things happened jus in 3 days
Since Fri, it's holidays...
Fri-holiday for national day...
sat & sun- weekend holidays as usual.

As Bel has told us earlier,
we r supposed to countdown for national day on Thurs nite in The Curve,
(never knew malaysians are so patriotic...al so excited in celebrating it~)
however, everything was not exactly as I expected..
so..yeah~HAHAXD
We went for karaoke in Neway which cost us RM58 each,
din sing for too long as we went in late n no extra time was given...
Kelly can sing quite well, n we enjoyed the food ther...
esp the japanese food..

After dat, we werent reli offered with sincerity to ve the transport back,
so we decided to walk back,
halfway, we thought we going Sunway to watch a movie or wateva,
so up we go into a taxi n headed to S.P,
anticipated long for the fireworks in midnite.,.
yeah..we did watch,
but disappointingly, d fireworks dint last for even 2min...

n this photo is gona be so precious,
the last BOMB from the firework..
SEE? I love my country too!
But seems that they love the country more than I do..=(
hehe...Happy Belated Merdeka~ HAHAXD



The next day,
me went to jumpa parents of Mok Wan Yen...
haha=D
as our families are quite close..
so mus meet up la! I oso love them vueli much le!!
unfortunately,wanyen fell sick in the second day...
fainted in the toilet n everything turned into a mess after dat...
yeah..anyways, she recovered after she woke up this am...

Poor lil wanyen
Yeah..bought these things from shopping..
This is for a gal, she loves Marie cat
This is for yiqian..hope she likes it, but yanyee them got speechless when I showed them this..nothing wrong buah?
This is one of the cute kittens downstairs..
AND...TA-DAHHhh!! These are given by SWEEEEttt Belinda Chong xiaojie! the lil bottle frm Kuantan, n the Dried strawberries from Cameron Highland...very youxin oso..=D Thanks Bel!
Started eating this thingy...for wat? me not sure orh..think for healthy body..so dat I ll turn in to a muscular woman!! WAkakakaka

Back in KL

Arghhh!!!!!!!!!!!
Arrived my hostel at 3am this morning,
WALAO eh,
stupid Airasia,
delayed n delayed...
The flight was orginally set at 615pm(departure time)
delayed to 840pm, then to 10pm then finally 1115pm...
it's over 12am when we arrived in LCCT,
so taxi fees=double charge..

hostel...
I din even feel like I ve been back to Bn..
stupid short hols~

In the plane, I was still thinking of the ppls in BN,
miss ya all..
esp my family members, ?, frens..
I din ve enuf time to enjoy the moments wif em..
time was not evenly n fairly divided for everyone i wanted to meet..
Din manage to meet Tcher Karen n Jiawen(as promised), Ronald, Joana, Mr Goo, my beloved tchers n frens etc.
Haiz..maybe ve to wait till yr end then..

Din reli remember wat ve I done for my return in bn this time,
everyday 'growing mushrooms' in Gadong?
worryin over the IT website but din manage to come out with anything productive?
Wanted to spend more time wif my family but kept running out frm the house?
Wanted to appreciate the moments with Ulxraxxx but was speechless most of time..
WALAO eh..
Din ve enuf time to do everything I ve planned to..

HOwever, the thing I m most concerned with right now is....----MY WEIGHT
haha=D
no, wrong expression, it shd b =S or =(
ppl r complaining I m too fat...
SOMEONE is complaining about it too
d u love me more if i m slimmer..
yes i do..
haaaaaaaaaaaa..funny~
LAUGH!! LAUGH ? STOP LAUGHING!
yea, mom i noe u ll, love me more when I lose weight...
haha, which is kinda..impossible=S

Back to my old lovely CHMS..
still the same old look,
cant walk pass the 'monkey area' anymore(path to the canteen),
ve to go through Darussalam Hall then u can reach canteen..
din meet many tchers..
din wana c those whom i don wana meet
haaa

Watched performances n competitions organised by English tchers..
em, modern dance- current CHMS students, of course still the experienced ones r better...
glad to c some WOW performances AGAIN in CHMS
the sound system seemed to be better this time...(for the singers)
haha=D
2nd or 3rd of sep is CHMS's Funfair,
kinda disappointed dat I ll nt b in Bn at dat time.

O yeah, thanks Sheau mei's family, ultraman n of cos my parents for sending me off in airport..
LOVE U ALL~
was surprised dat sheau mei was omos crying...
meimei too..don worry i m comin back to (once agen) create noise pollution in dec HAHAHAHA!!!!

3 more months to complete my SAM program,
if I don study hard in this 3 months' time,
I WILL DIE
IF I DIE, U ll DIE TOO(u'noe wat i meant~) HAHA=D
buh TATA


Some of the photos taken in Brunei(din take many though)Winnie n me

Fat me(saw my tyres?) n kepo-kia ewen
Jane(another junior of mine) n her fren(din noe her name)
Group photo in CHMS's Darussalam Hall's toilet
Wanted to take wanyen's sis photo, never saw her wearing mini skirts ma...but failed.

The 3 cute juniors...(pinjia, wendy a.k.a Hebe, Jenny)
LOVE shitling~
Again, my beloved family-frens
The FOrm-5s 2007
My mischievous DANDAN~HAHAXD

i m hapi

yeshhh!

SEE?
It's again time to go back to my PALACE~(one more day left)
At home, I jus feel so taken care of,
so comfortable, so warm..
Although I m having pretty enjoyable life here in KL,
but stil, I LOVE MY HOME MOST,
I love my parents most, love my miao miao...lurve my frens there in Brunei~
EVERYONE DOES RITE?
Noone would like to be away from the one they love~
so do I...
Luckily all the ppl I ve met here are all so kind to me...
K1 is such a COOL class...
Bel bel treats me n ewen reli nicely..
we love her to bitzz! She even brought us a bottle(wif coloured sand) wif the wordings"Bel loves PEi" and wen's "Bel loves Wen"
SWEET huh?! don b jealous of me la..I noe ur~
waiyen is owes there to help us...
jiaxian, hazim, akmal n others(the guys) owes bring laughter to the class...
our class repz r both so responsible n are always helping the class...
ie: get less hw for us..etc..HAHA!
my Psy classmates r al so kind too, esp those from my class K1,
they helped me alot...
Adeline even typed the whole sample report(after taking photo of the report given by tcher) n sent it to us!
Yinmei 'helped us a lot in the research too...WANLIN u noe wat i meant~

N Wanyen n kent them r al here too~I jus felt so 'secure' wif them here...=D

N I felt reli glad to meet Yiqian agen~ she's jus so POLITE N NICE( still the same as 8 yrs ago)

PLUS PLUS, My housemates r mostly fun too,
totally not as bad as I ve thought before coming here...
yanyee owes bullies me, but dats kinda FUn too
ewen owes help me in assignments, as we r in the same class...
They r jus NOT-selfish at all!
So, I feel so xinfu rite now

In conclusion, I should learn to appreciate the ppl around me...
to appreciate MORE....=D

MANY MANY MORE

anyway, despite of those +ve XXXXX, I stil feel more like gettin home ASAP!~!!




HOME! HERE I COME!! MOMMY, DADDY, MEIMEI, MIAO MIAO, HWA,SHITLING, ?,SUANG,ALL KEPOCHIS(Jy,jeff,siang......-*u noe who ur*)MY EX-CLASSMATES,My EX-Tchers, CHMS, AL MY FRENS OUT THERE! WAHHHHHH!!!

YEAH!!
APPROVED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
TA DAH~!!!
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哀怨

勉强的笑-she was actualling smiling, but it seems she is unwilling to do dat-blame her eyebrows


Pirates of the Carribean(esp Yanyee)

AI YUAN~ QI GUAI~KE PA
ANOTHER CUTE ONE FOR U AL~(we ve to thank ewen for entertaining us!)













UUhhhh....Kelian!

I feel like sayang-ing ewen cos she looks so kelian~ O.....SAYANG SAYANG!

Over the weekend..

Went to Redbox,
It has been a long time I haven t went there already...
everytime planned to go, never jadi one..
then finally,
we managed to go,
we refers to FOUR of us..
yeah~ JUST four, but we enjoyed much though,
esp me..
I enjoyed every moment in the 'room'
haha=D
I jus cant help sing non-stop,
waiyen enjoyed too,
she's so INTO the song when she sang,
yiiwen sang her heart out too.=D
while for wanyen,
as usual,
she din REALLy dare to sing,
but then she improved liao,
cos she did sing some solo part~
HEHE=D
This time I got some new 'achievement'
i did reach the note of 'Oh my GOD'
maybe u don understand wat i meant,
but it's ok
as long as i understand it~
jus wana 'record' it down here.....

~Waiyen n ewen~

Redbox-after renovation...the room s in cool black..forgot how it was b4 the change~
The door
Outside...(looks nicer actually..)-blame my camera
the screen..

Buh, end here first..
ll upload some "nice nice nice" photos l8r
----here they are!---(stick 'lack' of some...)
This is the nice drawings on the wall of The Curve(some area)
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As there was roadshow n workshop of Clinique today in our college, we managed to get some free gifts
when we got back home, yanyee n ewen first tried out the mascara....
Em..not bad..
then yanyee started FA-HIAO-ing n asked me for my eyeliner..
she said she wana try applyin it..
AFter dat....
we turned out like this...

HI...WO SHI MEI NV(I M GORGEOUS!)

MUACKZZZ!!! kiss us?

actually ewen is cuter, ve to convince her to 'allow' me to upload her photo..=D