wth

I thought it's gona b a happy outing like before.
ppl r excited to go, ppl cooperating to buy stuffs, ppl confirming if they r going.
keep asking, keep confirming, keep asking for help. but it's like,
i m bertepuk-ing sebelah tangan.
DAMN IT

First car-drivin lesson

WoOHHOOOooo!!!
driving on the road in the first time, scary but FUN!

'jangan lupa tukar gear....jgn laju, brek brek.!!!' HAHA. this 'cikgu' was kinda cute. haha
She said I performed quite okay, not too bad.
I tot I will b scolded something like ' BODOH KAMU!', but it din turn out dat way.
PPHEWWW....

I din't know this 'cikgu' has taught so many of my friends/ ppl i know
MD ppl:- louis, jonathan tee, robinson, joana, chen hui, jeff pang, au de hao, kinglin, huiking, cheahong...etc
others..emily goh, YING SUANG!!! (still learning, after my lesson it's her turn)

WALAO. c how small is Brunei?

Brunei, a small place

Realized some of the ppl around me get proud of themselves SO EASILY.
wow. it's time for them to step outside from Brunei and see how the other parts of the world is like.
I used to be quite good in some areas in Brunei,
but ever since I went to KL, there are just SO MANY ppl who r actually better than u.
in singing, yes, SO MANY,
in drawing, i'm no longer SO good as I was in secondary school, cos ppl use computer softwares now, less hand-drawing.
in chinese, sorry it's not that important and is less frequently used there.
in dancing, I've forgotten how to dance. now ppl r more into modern dance in which i'm not good at.
in speaking, it's more english based. so i can't really express my ideas fully anymore, and it's less fluent too=(
in socializing, a new environment, I have to adapt to it. Have less friends here compared to brunei. In this small place, it's just so easy to meet ppl u know anywhere.
in performing, in secondary school, teachers are complaining that they wanted to puke whenever they c me on stage AGAIN n AGAIN. now, it's a new college for me, ppl dono me well, they won't come and ask me to perform, I MYSELF have to go to auditions, and the chance of getting chosen is not that big, as maybe i'm not so much better than others, n i ve not much friends in the committee.
靠关系，it's like this EVERYWHERE.

So yup.
here ends this topic agen.
I'm too bored that loads of ideas flowed into my mind. haha...

sucks

Was reading through others' blogs.
I really feel so useless seeing ppl who can write in very good english.
Brought up in a chinese environment,
I din expect myself to be as good as them,
But, undeniably, I still tend to feel so lousy and lack of confidence in front of them.
Even when I have to just simply communicate or have some random conversations with those who are so eloquent, and fluent in english, I'll immediately shiver like a mouse.
I'm not being humble here, it's so so true.

As I've said,
Ever since I've came to KL,
my confidence level dropped dropped n dropped.
You would say
Malaysia only MAH, ppl der don speak good english also.
NOPe, ur wrong,
perhaps u won't know it until you meet'em.
HAHA.
Even last yr in Taylors main campus,
there were already large numbers of very good speakers and writers.
But I guess I'm getting use to it SLOWLY,
at least it's better than last year.
I talked so little last year,
especially in Psychology class, whereby everyone speaks english.
The lecturer even thought I'm a very quiet girl,
imagine how quiet was I.

Sheeling and Rebecca,
-english pros, perhaps almost the same level as the others in english/ international skuls have been encouraging me to speak more frequently so that I can improve and feel less intimidated.
Thanks huns.=)

Hopefully I can get better overtime, slowly.
My sis is able to do it, why can't I?
She's been improving a lot,
We r brought up in the same environment,
so I can learn so much from her too.

=) =)
cheer up spy. HAHA
y m i being so emo...

Siasoy

haha.
Have been a 'siasoy' person since i was born.
My elder sis asked me not to go out to siasoy myself.=S
cos I never ever NOT do embarrassing stuffs.
My friends n family r ashamed of me, no matter any where, any time.
but they still love the way i m, i guess? (pls say yes!)haha.
although sometimes they might somehow feel a lil... SIASOY-ed of me.
HAHAHAHAHHA

My close friends here are all siasoy ppl too.
Think of sheeling, rueyhwa....etc, so many of them,
yanyee, ewen, wanyen, jeffrey......so many siasoy ppl.
other friends not mentioned, u should feel happy about it.
don forget, we r talking about siasoy-ness here.
they influenced me! not my fault.
姓赖. hahah

I can't exactly tell HOW siasoy is it.
so.
here ends the topic.
ok, if i were to write this as an essay, i ll fail.
but it's not. so who cares? hahahahaa

yeapie!

PASSED!
one more week n i m gona get my 'L' license.
and the following week, i'm gona attend car-driving lessons.

so i've left one more week to have fun in brunei and another week for those lessons.

this week is gona be sports week.
tennis, swimming, volleyball, here i come!
hopefully I can keep doing sports for one whole week!
KIAM BUIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIIII

goin around wif the same thing

I am still stuck with this car-driving law thingy,
should have taken the test on wednesday but it was postponed to tomoro.
Going Miri tomoro for the test, hopefully I'll pass in the first time so that my mom doesn't have to bring me down to Miri agen the other day.
so...
i better get back to revise the mcqs now.=)

p.s i don feel like eating in Excapade anymore after feeding my gona-burst-soon-stomach 4 times of whole loads of sushis since i came back.
but, maybe i can make an exception for yiiwen. okay, once. For u. who asked me to promise u earlier hahassssssss=D

Will it come true?

What a beautiful dream,
everything seemed so peaceful,
happiness filled the air.
it's how I have always wanted things to be.

When I realized it's just a dream,
it's just pure disappointment.

How i hoped it could just stay the way it was,
or perhaps,
it could become reality?

Busy studying for law test on this comin wednesday.
Seseorang pemandu harus bertanggungjawab, jangan memandu jika mengantuk....blahhh...
so TIRED lar.
but at least i have something to do for now. hahas.
study hard. no failure! cos i wana take driving classes asap. i m so OLD ord.

after the law test, i can relax agen.
this upcomin sunday, RTB singing competition.
meetin up wif suang, tennis before that.
hopefully none of them will be cancelled,
cos I might be going for video-watching thingy on Saturday, or Friday.

Having great fun here. although sometimes i feel useless for having nothing to do.
HAHAHA.

till den.
buai buai=)

Bruney 1

FAT!
none of them said i aint.
SAD.
ther's no exceptional.
that's just the first thought that popped in their mind.
cos..
cos..
IT'S SO TRUE!
ok nvm about it.
i ll TRY to lose weight.
but. but. but.
keep yumcha-ing/ eating mom's yummy food won't help achieving my goal.
so... yeah. c how it goes then.
HAHHAA



While kehpoh-ing wif brunei biatches,
i m also anticipating for the return of those two biggie boobies.
go bitch, go beach! HAHAsss
miss ur jian-ness gals.


Some of the photos taken.
meet-ups.
can't post so many of them cos the connection is freakin slow.

Well, in Brunei it's all about The Mall Gadong, Kiulap, Beaches, Empire Hotel, Home Sweet Home, Sweet ppl, Safety, n some more repetitious places. hahas.
BUT I STIL ENJOY IT SO MUCH!










due to the slow-like-tortoise connection here, i m so freaked out in uploading photos. gona upload more when i go out n on9. =)

busy wif studying for law test rite now.
i don wna retake it another time.
bah bah,
back to 'studies'
take care ppl=D

brunei brunei!

i m a princess now.
ppl r complainin how FAT i m here. =(
photos gona b uploaded within 7 days i gues. haha=)

coursemates, mis ya all.
enjoy d hols!

before- college.

Just wana post some pics here.
ENJOY guys=)

Coming Home Soon

Mommy Papa meimei... I'm coming home soon!

FINALLY, I'm done with the LAST assignment for Sem 1!
*Applause.....drum rollingggg.. HAHHAA

Gona go to friend's farewell later.
Yan Sin is leaving to Oz nex sem.
hope everything will be fine for her there.

Then, nite time gona meet Adrene,
Chyi's friend, who jus simply looks and IS so kind and polite.

And den, I feel like meeting yanyee n ewen they al b4 going back,
c how it goes later.
maybe after One-U, I ll go n luk for em.
No car- not convenient at ALL.
Hate taxi laos for 'consuming' SO much of my $ =(


p.s photos will be uploaded when i m back from shoppin/ meeting ppl

tomoro gona start packing my stuffs. TIRED

太失望

原来有选择的时候，你选择的并不是我们。

没选择时，才向我们走来，滚开，我们不欢迎你。

有难同当，有福不同享,
运气不是无限量的。
空壳一个。


人缘真好， 恭喜你=)


wu cui gong ba lang, bo cui gong ga gi
(quoted by yen, in hokkien) =D

you don deserve us. get lost.

2 more to go

Monday- PR Report
Fri- CRR Report
then
Sun- FLY!

p.s thanks yiqian n lihua for helping to get the books. they really helped a lot. n saved us from 'drowning' to death. hahas! muaxxx~ <3

will update about everything when i m done with everything.

after assignments, i m gona pack my stuffs, ready to move (house), then have to meet hyi's friend as she helped my sis to pass some stufs for me, and den and den...have to go shopping n buy something back for my beloved papa mama n meimei. AHHHH how could i do all these in two days?!

sei fo

haha.
mic, speaker, Windows Vista with a
wesome graphics...everything ok, except, INTERNET.
i feel like dying, but here comes my saviour Hoang,
he's gona save it! hopefully I can online soon.
i need to do my assignment due on friday.
Once agen, thankssss to u.=)

p.s will update about SO many things/ photos after i finish my assignments + when i can use the wireless. =(

be patient my dearest frens=D

........................................................................................................................................................................
CAN BE CONNECTED 2 D INTERNET ORD!!!!!!
have been listening to some of my friends singing on the web js now.
Brunei ppl- the link is here= http://www.mandarinsong.e-huawang.com/08xingxiu/main.asp


updating soon, mayb fri~ =)

haiz

There'r some problems with my laptop,
the mic and earphone plug thingy r not working.
Hoang helped me to fix it, but it's gona be completed on this weekend.
He's always so willing to help, really gona appreciate this kind friend of us=)

Still stuck with the CCS Journal,
Wendy, Kent n I still 'sneaked' to Pyramid just now.
Piles of assignments, n we seemed to ignore them.
HOW CAN?! =S
tryin to do since jus now,
not doing much.

Benefit

Just read through the booklet Wendy's got.
And saw these!
Christie is using this. The red one. Looks nice right?
As i don't ve rosy cheeks by nature, i ve to apply blush. HAIz. damn sad

HAHA...

BUT.
it's about RM145? GAWD.
This is the one. RED. The packaging is unique rite?
Y is 'blush' in liquid?
hmm...dun understand.
the effect is nice though.


I don't really know what'r the differences between the other two.
?
?

darn funny

过街老鼠，人人喊打

真可笑。

inside my heart.

.Spilling out my thoughts, then u ll be the one listening to me.
.need a good listener,
.even if you dunno how to comfort me,
.jus don have to tell me tat u don wish to listen me talking about it over n over again.


.you are always standing by me everytime,
.but why can't you just tolerate with me for this?
.it may sound annoying,
.but then can you understand how I feel?
.this may drive u mad again,
.but it's true.
.put urself in my shoes.
.u may say i'm stupid for what have happened.
.but den, what had happened has just happened in a way.
.so..

can you stop talking to me like this?
SO BAD. (quoted by you)
or else I dono how should I spill my feelings to you anymore.


friends are meant to listen to each other.
n i hope u ll be the one I could talk to every time.