No idea

No idea what to write here, just feel like writing something,

I always had loads of thinkings in my mind but the forgetful me just can't remember anything when I open this window and is ready to post an entry.

Got really fed up with SAM this few moments, assignments and tests r piling up like SHIT, I hate to remember those stupid Due Dates a.k.a deadlines-*yea i know I am going to be dEAD if I ever dare to not pass up my assignments.* I know the college is training us this way for our own sack, but yet, don't they know that we, the students are really suffering? Can you imagine the feeling of having so much "things=worries" to pile up in front of you, with tests and assignments due on the same day? Yea, I don't look stressed, and I don't act to be that way, cos I don't, for no reason. What I m writing here is just my inner feelings that can't be released thoroughly in my normal days. It's just a unique feeling that you can feel something is blocking your way. Obstacles, like my life just can't go smoothly without so much worries. Assignments and tests r at fault. yea...rite... I m slowly turning into a dumb"er" person, "er" as I was dumb for the past years too. =P
I really agree with what penguin told me. People with less knowledge will always be looked down by those with higher "isiS" in their brain. I can be regarded brainless for my age, turning 18 soon, I still haven't find or get the right way in socializing, get my days organized, solving my own problems,etc. God, I still have so much to learn!

It's always an eternal nightmare for me in everything I have done wrong or have not done well. People tend to say, don look back, look far in front. No, for me, it's so so so different as people always treat me so unfairly. Every time I failed in doing something, they will be so happy despite my sadness and disappointment. After all, they are just evil to keep repeating or reminding or just telling others about my wrong-doings in the past. WHATS WRONG WITH THEM?! And most importantly, I felt damn helpless cos I didn't know what to talk back. Remain silence is the best way to solve problem..? Nope, sorry you are wrong again. But yet, other than the lousiest way of solving the problem-keeping silence, I just couldn't get back my self-esteem at that heart-broken moment and fight back with any other words. SHIt me. Flashing back on my failures, especially in my results, which had been dropping like bomb n "surprised" or may had "brought happiness" to some families of my friends, I don't even know what am I going to blame myself for. For laziness, for not focusing on studies? for being day-dreaming in secondary life? for...for...for...reasons are going to be infinite.

Sometimes, or in fact most of the times, I tried to look at the bright side of a particular thing. Yea, indeed it some how works, in a way that it brings me temporary relief and understanding about "something". Like not-remembering:- what bad deeds has this person done to you in the past, how has he or she betrayed you, how has he or she hurt you, etc. Asking me if I could do that. For sure, and most probably, my answer is NO. No and no.(for my own reasons) Actually friends around me, who may not understand me thoroughly(although they are "considered" to be my so-called"good" friends) has always disappoint me when they say some points(about me) which I think is totally WRONG. cos the person she was talking about was absolutely not me. My impression for her is that I am lack of forgiveness. Maybe my smelly mouth has been betraying me, for talking nonsense and simply joking around. Some more, she said I do not treat my friends that nice( as in not good enough), well, this really hurt me loads- sometimes my family members even blamed me for giving too much attention on my friends-in which my LurvE ones do not like and advised me not to put in so much effort on friends who r "useless"- in order to not get HUrt that much at last. I refused to listen to them. At last, yea, elders or jiejieS are correct. and I m taught to listen to people's advises(ppl= those who give useful and right advices).

177Q- my unit

kena WARNING for the third time

1st case---- yanyee's prob, about goin shoppin n her mom was mad,
she got kinda sad, n zonglin them al came in our unit n comfort her
*NO OPPOSITE GENDER GUESTS R ALLOWED*
but first time n maybe yanyee looks cute( actualli NOT, cannot praise her)
DIn kena record

2nd case---- ewen's BOY came find her...then kena again
*NO OPPOSITE GENDER GUESTS ALLOWED*
ewen kena 1st warnin letter

3rd case---- makin too much noise at the balcony wher evyone except me, pyramid(seldom) n cindy(never) hangin around ther, haha...cos i think it's too smal n crowded, n my room is more comfortable...ehseh! haha...
*DISTRACTING OTHER RESIDENTS*
shitu-having the greatest loudest voice kena bomb...
actually kena complained last time, my agent got the letter but dono y others don get it, it's a complaint letter about our unit being too noisy---LOUD music played by our music lover, Noises n screams...etc, dats y i m considered quiet in this unit..bcum a bit GU PI, owes stay in room recentli, din get rid of anything purposely, jus like the silence n coolness in my room

fan2

I tend to think deepli over small matters,
as in wat my frens said about me...
*unintentionally*
lookin at d bright side,
I can reli improve myself n bcome a better person each time
on d other way round,
it's so troublesome dat it caused me to ve too much worries...

我说话真得很冲动吗？
难听一点的话-说话不经过大脑~=(
ey..这是我的特点咧---单纯!!
可是哦..
自己真的没发觉过...
比起赞赏，
我真得厌恶批评，
受不起这种“打击
对我内心的打击。。
太容易受伤了。。。
这就是我的弱点~
但比起我身边的一些朋友，
我说话还不至于会伤人太深吧？
我已尽量“三思而后行”了。。。
但还是不够成功。。。
做人难，难做人。。。
好想好好的叹一口气哦！！！

虚假。。
我相信世界上的每一个人都有这么一个缺点吧？
我承认在必要的时候，
我会显得虚伪，
但若这能让大家都
少一些争执和不愉快，
何乐而不为呢？
有些时候，
我还蛮羡慕厉害掩饰自己的人，
这些“精”人，
经常可以让身边的人认为他们是大好人，
但其实心机中的可怕又可怜。。。
可怜的是，
这些人已迷失了自己，
在掩饰的过程中，
他已迷失了真正的自己。。。
是真是假，自己也模糊了方向。。。
为什么要这么做呢？！！！！


友情。。。
对我来说，
好难捉摸。。。
友情也有一厢情愿的时候，
常会有自称好朋友的”好朋友”，
表面看起来感情无比的好，
但其实当中还是有些不为人知的故事，
很有趣吧？才怪！
就是因为这一切的一切，
才会使得友情变得如此复杂。。。

有些时候，
努力对别人好是没用的，
因为与你无缘的人永远不会感受到这一点，
我真得太相信缘分了，
不管是恋人，朋友，
强行是改变不了什么的，
当中的感情也不一定会因为你付出的一切努力而增长，
所以虽然在过程中回收了点伤，
但事情总有雨过天晴的时候。。
一切就顺其自然吧！

*待续*

PAISEH ARHH!!
long time no c...haha~ tel u al d reason y.. 1. tests n assignments r in piles 2. sleepy n tired 3. lazy 4. busy readin ppl's blog 5. lazy to write oredi

ok, let me recal wat happened for the past few days try to jot down here anyway... er...
O YEAH, I wana cnue the story of my malay tcher He is actually nice lar, as in he's cute?"cute" is it a suitable word to dscribe him? NOT SURE..he s jus adorable..haha~ n i shudnt ve been XIN SHANGing his hairstyle so much since earlier, in fact, i shud treat him better as he is reli suffering more dan others, as he has some kinda prob wif his legs n ve to use "sumtin"*dono wat s it called* -sumtin to aid him in walking, so starting from last lesson, I tried to stay bk til he s ready to go, as I reli felt guilty if i let him open the door by himself, as it takes a longer time n troublesome for him to do dat...

N last wed was ewen's bday, so jealous of her to ve US as her frens...( sorry for "vain"ing here) reali BA....she got converse shoes, bodyshop perfume, n a nice gold belt... Actually Belinda reli has the "heart" for her, she secretli jotted down al the things yiwen wanted to buy in a list, n yea, I m helpful in selecting the shoes, but yet those i chose werent available( size not NGAM la)..so at last, finally, akhirnya..haha..
jus came bk from Intercollege Dance competition organised by my college, it was kinda good... as in the spotlights, sound system...WOHOooohHHH! reaLI MADE U HighhhhhhHHH! haa...however, as i was having sore eye, kinda spoil my mood a lil.. Bel performed, CCY performed...*ppl who r interested in watching, ask frm me when i get back to bru* cant give any comments here, not convenient la..~hahahahha!!!

after the function...

then we stayed in AC til 3am, chattin la..wif slam dunk-whom i found is a reli nice guy, ACtually.
I DON understand y love is such a complicated thing..it brings happiness n oso sadness.. esp when ppl s heartbroken, or havin prob over love matters, I felt so sorry as I don reli ve any comments in helpin them.. SORRY BA!! NOT MUCH xperiences MA..SORRY LOR! haha

cant go wanyen's place this wk, so sad... nex wk la..got plan liao...go KKKKKKKK..yeah!

quite happy recentli, got more frens to hang around n tok to wanyen's frens...yan yee's classmates who r reli fun to b wif oso..n oso my own very original frens from clubs, classes...yea, i guess dats about it...haha!!

THe Monkey

jus too wuliao...
haha...c the Monkey me


BELHAHAHAHHAH!!

C....I reali get chubbier.....OMG!!! teach me how to kiambui wifout having to cut down meals~

SORT day

HALO!! din put my photos to shock u al purposely, sorrY!! hhaa..lazy to drag them down la...so put up here lor.

DOUBLE CHIN

PICs taken durin econs class..

Don think I can maintain to post new entry everyday for now, tests r coming nex week, n after al the tests and quiz, it's mid yr exam, I m not a bit satisfied wif my results since i got my first test paper, therefore, simpeiyi shud work harder isnt? ai zz...

most of my frens gav compliments 4 my bloggie, but some said ITS ROJAK..haaha, i admit, it's...but as jia xian said, oni ROjak language is more understandable bua..haha!! nvm, AS I Like it la..

I noe i m getting lazier for updating my blog...this is my style...SAN FEN ZHONG RE DU, suddenly realised I m starting to forget HOW TO WRITE CHINESE!!! NO!!!!! I ve been studying chinese for 14 yrs, how could i forget about it? I LOVE CHINESE!! oleh kerana itu, I decided to write some chinese blogs "in the future"----meaning i m not sure when i ll do dat..

N oso, I feel a lot better these few moments as d awkwardly quiet me has gone back to the SPY in Brunei--- getting LOUD n crazy again lately... Maybe I found somethin else to talk wif ppl le bua... esp Bel, felt better... N oso ewen she owez PEI HE me for wateva i do...hahaa=P

OK, MORE PHOTOS~~

INtroduce our beloVED MALAY tcher to u al..dono his name..

GREAT HAIRSTYLE RITE??!!=) =) =) =) =)

老 师讲他的，我们拍我们的, reali feel so good la...OLD classmates bcome classmates again(me, yanyee, ewen, yiqian, zonglin, chiew ying, desmond...n Chiew Rui oso)*don b jealous orhh!!*

欣赏 this gal, i mentioned about her b4, she s peihwa, good in hip hop dance, n a very nice person too..oso 不顾形象one..but i m not dat close to her la..jus noe her nia, she noes me n i noe her..dats all..haha=P

Look at the guy wif golden hair, he looks a bit like monkey rite?! he's reli 爱演...even more aiyan than anyone i ve seen..CAN U IMAGINE DAT? haha, he s from Miri, St Joseph, he has been "working" as the clown of psychology class, anyways, he did lighten up the atmosphere successfully each n evytime..haha...=P( c he's duin stupid things again...HAizz)


nice background n nice models rite? haha esp pei hwa..slim n tall..*envious* --again..


REalised ther is a ladybird in our room....cant take a clearer photo..sorry~

Today honey chicken croissant no stock la..eat chicken floss egg mayo lor, stil worth it, sOOOOOOOOOO many chicken floss, wondering how they earn money by sellin this la, oni RM2.90 er...
This is the lion keychain stolen from my sis..
hahaha!!! me n bel ran in the rain wif plastic bags we got from OLD town Kopitiam's staffs...SO DIU LIAN!!!! two blueIE SOT gals running over the road when it was raining cats n dogs...HAiz...

THIS IS THE FUNNIEST THING I VE EVER SEEN---N IT"S DONE BY WONG YII WEN THE STUPID GAL....haha....
"aiyo, so romantic arh, switch off the light, i wana use al the yellow lights from the study lamp" haha!!!!! then someone put her monkey KAPO under the lamp..then kena BURNT on the monkey's heaD!!!!!! WAkakahahahhaHAHAHAH!!!!! SO FUNNY!!!!!! 笨就是笨，+ she kept hiding her monkey...DON WANA LET ME C!!?? hurhh!! I LET EVYONE C NOW..*报复心好重*hahahaha

SKUL life

It rained again..haiz..so sien, I have to run al the way back home, wif half of my pants soaked, SH*t, haha, but today psychology class is canceled again!! =P SUANG le..

anyways, me bel n ewen r now competing on writing blogs, n me n my stupid sis-simchyimei is competin in uploading photos, as she said she has got more photos than I do..HERHH

ER...This is how my "college"*CEh~* looks like...

k, now, lets c the SHARP FRINGEd FAMILY( copyright from Bel)


*i noe i look scary, purposeli to SCARE U AL!!! hahaHahHHAHAH!!!!*

THEN-------c our MR TOW, honour'ly "invited" by MISS MARY NG to have an interview by their group-Doin LAN project...haha, about religion, needless to say--about Buddhism..


my housemates "keepin fit"-I m not involved(always), therefore I m the "slimmest skeleton" at home

PHWEIIIT!!!!!!!!SKirts, everytime they walk down the stairs, GUESS, WAT COLOR??!! haha..
cant imagine how these ppl ll take revenge on me when i wear one nex time...KIA KIAorhh!
My classmate, joslyn- so like a good n nice sista rite, haha! she was kena kacauED by us for the whole day jus bcos she wore a mini skirt to skul..WU LIAO orh us..=P

These are the two KEPOs kepoing nearby staircase after skul..(while i was waiting for my "psycho"(short form for psychology) tcher to "arrive"


Our Class "Rap"=Rep=Representative-He is SUper-intelligent, he speaks realy ANg-Mo slang english n has a very "quick" brain...top scorer in my class in almost every subject...

Belinda, U AGAIN!!!!??? haha, my readers r gettin bored seeing ur A PO face, SHE IS MOLESTING my LIL CUTIE TIGEr( I wana throw my tiger away liao!!) SHE DINT PICK HER NOSE SHIT ONE!!..given by cheaxin a few yrs ago, nvr really used it


N in the middle of math lesson, she treated us chocolate stick, but she s really bad la, she said, NAH, eat these, not nice one..!!( a bit like sheeling~) then we r like..huh, not nice baru giv us eat la??!! she said al masuk angin liao one, then I got the NOT-masuk angin one, I bit......ER<> then she snatched it away, reLLI er, it's not loufeng...haha
C THEIR xpression, she got the masuk angin one..hahaa, unlucky.
AND LAST but not least, MY EXPRESSION--AN SHUANG=暗爽....hahah..The probability to get one wifout masuk angin chocolate stick is one to two, three over six, ewen said i wasted my luck on this...ceh! wher got, I m stil gona b this lucky FOREVER!! hOHOOHOHOO!!

photos..

Belinda Claudia did hair extension-natural hair from me~=P
yellow lights in our room, romantic le..
McD Mcchicken Mcvalue buy one free one..

comp hang

wana ask if anyone of u noes wat s d prob of my lappie?
this s d window appeared when my comp hang

chen zhi guang

Anyone of u stil remember the music tcher?? chen zhi guang? suddenly feel dat this world is damn small, I SAW HIM IN A DVD!!! a performance in XX skul of johor bahru, COOl~ haha....he got a bit fat n his face get broader...dats al, no big change...

jus feel a bit weird for "finding" him in a dvd..?

photos taken recently~~

Sunway Pyramid-on the evening when there was concert in sunway lagoon surf beach on the nite..many ppl hurh..!!! so zo Ding~ traffic la

Felix D CAT-Kent's housemate, we ve same interest, esp in singing n performance...He s fun to be wif..=P

specially prepared by Belinda Chong Ser Chi-d pretty but DIU lian gal

saw this in taxi--seems interesting~

morning view-7am...in ridzuan condo, not yet go bed bua--nice hor?
KASIAN NYA
zhuo jian zai chuang



makan di wai sat gai..selera makan...at SS2
ewen(pretendin to sleep in class, actually she DID, but din "manage" to fall asleep)
My classmate+psy classmate-Eric...c his ugly look!! *p.s eric don b mad of me when u c tis, jus to "entertain" my readers ba~*

recentli taken photo~ chyi, c i m d prettiest, not u!!!! Bleh!Z!!Z!!!