I had no other choices but to walk away

Call me a loser or whatever, but when it started to feel uncomfortable being with you, I actually think it works better to stay away. There's no use forcing anything to strengthen the bond again or whatsoever. At least I tried, or I tried too hard I'd say. Thanks for not giving up on me, thanks for the patience given consistently, but it is just too tough, and even it's fixed, so what? I hate the stress I had being with you, and the mask I've to wear all the time, that's just not me.

I know I'm such a useless person, but bear with me. Well, I think we shouldn't even worry about anything. Just leave it, because it's good for everyone.

Thanks for the time spent. And I actually feel so disappointed in myself (mostly) for spending a whole of 7 months with you and ended up here. How pathetic.

I should stop thinking about it and get over it. the sensitive me. SIGH. I'm making my life hard. HAH.

RIP birdie

Living in a country with four seasons for the first time (sorry I'm from kampung/ village, haiz equatorial country!), I am pretty excited when I could wear trenchcoats/ scarfs/ boots during winter. BUT NOW, I miss wearing shorts/ something with thinner material, cos I'm so fed up of wearing layers when I go out, worrying how cold it's gona be and all.


Spring is here and it's turned really warm (well, mostly. thanks to the unpredictable weather in Melb) during daytime, and it could suddenly drop up to 10 degrees lesser than daytime at night. crazy isn't it?

Despite how unpredictable the weather is, we still manage to survive, maybe get a lil sick at times, but look at this poor little bird. SIGH, blame the weather. it's frozen to death, pity it:(

RIP birdie

End of the sem2!

Sem 2 actually ended last week. Finished two tests, did okay I assume, and now, shake legs a bit and probly can start off revision for the one and only exam ard 12 days later! :)

(For your explanation agen, it's that I have 3 exams but two of them are being scheduled earlier than the exam period, so it's called Tests, and I have done the two of em)cos people have been yelling at me ' WHY DO YOU ONLY HAVE ONE EXAMMM GAHHHH' and they attempted to bite me, so I'm giving explanation to stop ppl from lookin at me with green eyes. HEHE


HENCEEEE.... while shaking legs too freely, I FORGOT, yes i FORGOT about going to gym and started relaxing a lot! look at my weight again! sigh it increases so easily but to lose it again is so hard! GOSH!

To introduce again, these two are the pillars I have in Melbourne, like twin towers. Since they are so much taller than I'm, I can be the bridge in the middle.



And went DFO (Direct Factory Outlet) with Angeline, a lot of people said we look alike, do we?
oh btw, DFO is where you can find really cheap branded stuffs, but you gotta have the patience to flip through one by one, in detail in order to find nice stufs. ;D this, you can learn from me, i'm such a pro shopper (nothing to be proud of actually, I rather I excel more in academic stuffs HAHA:P)

Compare this to my fb profile pic taken two weeks ago. OMG. how can i gain weight soooooo fast! *biteeee
So looking at this look-alike of me, but a slimmer version, I suddenly am motivated to go gym again! THIS WEEK! I WILL WORK HARDER!
FOOD FOOD FOODDDDD I HATE YOU! (no i can't lie to myself) I LOVE FOOD, yes indeeddddd

We got ourselves something realllllllly worth it that day! Duty free shops are awesome! :DDD

Update more when I have time to calm myself more (in mind) and back to blogging mood! Till then, loves, hotbabepei

my blog isn't dead

It's been more than two weeks! OMG what've I been doing, I wasn't so busy! NO I WASN'T!

I will be back after Wednesday. I promise!

Test on Tue, another on Wed. then the last one would be 5/11 :)
shittttt I will have to start going gym after Wed, I haven't went for around one weekkk gahhhh fatsssssssssssssssssssss. i wana cry :'(

aite I CANT WAIT for everything to be over!!!!!! STUDY FIRST! laters <3