turning upside down

OOH shoooot.
I screwed my lifestyle.
Asking me to fall asleep before 12 is impossible, not even 3am.
what's wrong with me. damnnn

And bcos of that, I've ffk-ed ppl for twice these two days.
paisehh. and my reason is- i overslept. WALAO.
Normally when it's time to go out, I will sure be willing to wake up,
but I couldn't control myself ord recently,
no matter how much fun is waiting for me outside there,
I will just keep on dozing off back over and over agen.
AHH. two more nights to get back to normal sleeping time,
HELPPP... =S

p.s I hate worrying about transport when I've to go sing in cafe.
DAMN IT.
and finally, I've to go on those LOVELY cabs.

boringggg.

Edited some photos yesterday,
to kill time. WAKAKKAAA



the rainbow is a failure.
who caress hahahWent to redbox with kel and bel las week, finally met bel, she's a busy gal haiz.

and.
today dating with wanyen. we basically went for the buffet instead of singing. waakkaka.
Oh yeah, it's really cheap recently. Special promotion for school holidays,
RM8+, no tidbits charge. so it's around RM10 oni if you go in the afternoon.. WOHOO.
plus dinner, around RM20. HEHEHHHH...

BAH. breakfast tomoro, i hope. haha...so,

time to sleep. wakakka

lazy lazy bone bone

As you all know,
I am now having one week holidays,
which is 'replacing' one of the weeks from my September mid-sem break wth.
GOOD idea.
I've bought tics back,
and I think I'm gona just skip the classes as I've bought tics back to Bru n also to Kuching.
Such a sudden change haiz.

btw...
AHHH... I'm feeling so lazy, to do anything.
except from sleeping. dreaming... WAH damn relaxing. HAH
so here 'm I, starting to blog again due to boredom.


I'm always slower than wanyen in updating 'news'. haha.
call me slow tortoise or watever. I'm just pure lazy.

So earlier, it was wanyen's bdae celeb.
I'm glad to c dat she enjoyed the whole celeb.
She REALLY has a group of awesome girlfrens with her, with great bday celeb idea too.

So she had like, three get-together thingy to celeb her bday.
First one, to disappoint her at our own hostel with the small cuppycake.
Second, the real one, with a long row of close frens n coursemates sitting ther.
Third, a dinner at Chilli's, no more cake cos none of us is not overweight, okay mayb a few.

So, any suggestions ppl, what can I do in these few days?
5 more days to college reopening. SIENNNNNNNN.
Sunway Sunway n Sunway?
Home Home n Home?
Sleep sleep n sleep?

OH DAMNIT.

btw, thinkin back,
I haven't been attending much classes,
first week, got a MC for absence. second week... third week.. fourth week- HOLIDAYS!
wat the... it's seriously like... we haven't even started anything for this sem!
Only handed in one assignment, and the other assignment is postponed to September.

also, I kinda haven't get familiar with everyone in my new class.
I'm SO DEAD. Can I stop being ignorant about everything.
HAIZ
I AM SOOOOO LAZYYY although I know I shouldn't be.

Sorry, for you. 38

After reading your post,
after hearing some small parts of ur brief story about it,
I think I could hardly put the pieces together,
but yeah, I know something real bad happened that you din't wana talk about it.

And what did I do at that time?
After gettin your call,
I SLEPT! I CONTINUED SLEEPING!
I thought u jus went to a wrong place, and that's it!
That's y i asked u to call a taxi. =((
DAMN, I had no idea how helpless you were..
you are always there for me when I need help or companion,
and damn, I was selfish enough to just snooze off.
I AM SO SORRY.

And thanks to them who helped you. Luckily they were there for you.

still, BIG BIG SORRY!
sincerely apologizing.

at work

huuiyohhh....
can't believe I'm willing to drag myself out of bed and came to work for the second time,
being in a rush, eating 3-min instant mee with some of my apple perfume fragnance is weird, and it didn't feel good eating 'apple-flavored' chicken mee. haha

Friday has became the most 'fruitful' day for me I would say.
Working from 10am to evening, then continue at the cafe, singing with the AWESOME sound system.
Guess this is how my Friday gona be for this month. COOL...
yeah... cool.. cool.. cool..
but I actually feel that I'm doing something, rather than not, despite all my complaints which might have killed wanyen's ears. tsk tsk (Hoang, 2009)

Situation is still the same here,
I wonder if it's other person sitting in the shop, maybe more customers would come in.
I 'dai sai'. (bring shit= avoiding something good to happen)
haha, I don't know what can I do more though. Just sit and wait. haha.

Btw,
I can't stand my eyebags! How can I save myself????? OH NO!!!!
No matter how much concealer I put, the dark circles+ eyebags r there!
I tried using some dark circles treatment thingy but results wasn't seen! SHYT.

I'm so done. HAIZ




then... I'm too bored and while reading blog, I found this!
AWWW... TOUCHED!
yiqian's post for me.
I just read it! altho it was posted long long ago.
yeah, she was story telling like a grandma there, but it's still really really touching! good memories huh.=D

thinking back, I would have to say MILLIONS of THANK YOUssss to those who ve been there to support that time. I know who you people are. <33sssss
those PMs in MSN tellin ur frens to vote n everything,
'printed' in my heart. <3

wanyen's 19th

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FEI PO!!!(tryin to 刺激 you)

hope u slim down after this bday,
and our friendship remains macam ni forever WUHOO(i'm malay bah)
and...
永远肥肥胖胖 (WHOOPS, NO!)，健健康康，开开心心，疯疯癫癫 哈哈哈哈哈哈
graduate asap, everything smooth sailing yuhoo=)

and... (requested to write more...=_=)
but yeah i'm willing to, 'give you face',
hmm... this is the second bday i'm gona celebrate (EH CELEBRATE? who said ther's celebration haiz, don be sad.) with you.
19th bday, the only year where the bday on chinese lunar calendar is same with the normal birth 'date'. haiz, u know wat i meant lah.

hmm, wanyen, stay happy-go-lucky, stay HAWT (HAHA)!, stay nice to friends (benefit to me lor) & 有义气 like you always do, but do not sacrifice urself too much, esp ur BODY. haha!!!
BUT, pls... pls... it's time to 'reveal' ur feminine side, don be so mannish, later some girls like you then it's not my responsibility. attract guys ONLY okay? hahahhahaha=P
honestly, glad to have you around these two yrs, although ya know...
but, yeah... jus bcos of the time spent makes us closer friends who can understand each other more and hopefully FRIENDSHIP FOREVER=D
it's fated that i've to, unfortunately meet you and live together for these two years, you thought this is what i've always wanted? HAIZ. no choice also. WAKAKAKAA....
Don't know if we could spend our bdaes together again nex yr =D haiz, WHO CARES. when we start working, i don't think ther r much chances dy. tsk tsk. (Hoang, 2009)

SO, NVM ABOUT EVERYTHING, JUST ENJOY UR BDAY TODAY WITH =)))))))))

BIGGIE =D

MUAHAHAHA...

<3>

countdown= free time

Relax for one more week, I can see assignments waving to me in front,
walking towards me, they are getting nearer... NO!!!

Should have done some readings and do some preparation works for assignments coming up, but have been, as usual, procrastinating until today. I dreamt about the consequences of keeping up my 'good' attitude in studies, it's scary! NO!!!

Sleeping time is turned upside down, I'm wondering if I can wake up for class tomorrow. =S
Nothing much happened lately. I'm glad not much extra money is spent, just realized staying at home helps minimize my expenses, like seriously a lot. Hope it's not too late. HEHE. =P

Last weekend, ewen came to a visit, long time no see longlegs!
Someone took bus n came down from Damansara alone neh, WU SIM lah=)
cyah in Oct, have fun in Bru yoh

These three girls, thanks for coming that day,
I know you girls are real tired, THANKS A LOT for the companion muacks<3>
Then it was Pen's, my cousin's day of serving,
and this is the first fine dining we went to this time bk to college.
I guess nervousness is common when the lecturer is staring at you, especially when mistakes are done. Most of the friends are in the same situation when we went for their serving.
But still, good job Pen, you will improve even more after practices.
The poser! haha, she loves the mushrooms.
That was in Pyramid.
about this...hmm...
BYE!
MUAHAHAHA =D

slap me!

why is it when u can't get that something,
you want it so desperately that you keep thinking about it all day,
then,you got it, and over time, you just get bored with it,
and feel annoyed sometimes.

人就是犯贱

getting busy

Stil remember the time when I complained my life is too meaningless,
had nothing better to do except from running madly here n there,
just for the sake of fun and killing time.
Now, I do have something to do, queuing up, and I'm thinking how to put them in sequence, do them in order and not getting anything screwed this time.
And sometimes it's true when I have no idea how to arrange things in my mind properly, and get them done perfectly, I blame myself, over and over.
I hope I don't get insane some day. Thinking too much nonsense is unnecessary, I knew it, but I just couldn't avoid it.
Luckily there are people around me who are always there to cheer me up most of the time I needed them. Thank god.=)

las few weeks.

randomly picked some photos from las few weeks to edit.





and....
currently, i'm a lil undecisive about going spore in early September with my divorced/ ex horse husband n the others to meet monkeygal n goldfish. The return tic is jus RM95 now.
But thinking about how matured is one of my fren's thinking, 'skipping class for a trip?', I started feeling guilty. yeah, i really do.

Also, I wana buy tics to go bk bru during mid sem break, but the tics r seriously WUUUH =S
walao. sienness.

Today is the best day of my college life, I guess. It made my day more when I met robin munsuet weijiin diana they al at mamak after class. =) HAPPY.
n I love wanyen more for sacrificing (regarding grouping stufs), she's the most 有义气 girl in my group of friends. But honestly, I feel uneasy about it for unable to help. you know what I meant <3

How have I been?

I am living my life not-too-badly.
so far so good.
New coursemates seem friendly,
some of the old friends managed to accompany this sem,
honestly being selfish, it's something happy for me, u know, companion from someone familiar.

Applied leave for two days last week cos of mild fever, cough n flu.
Thanks Wendy and Andrew for driving me to the clinic.
Earlier on, Ruey hwa, Rebecca, Ruiyue n Singyee were here, guess I had too much fun in a short while and it's time for me to rest.

AND bigbiggg achievement, I managed to convince one of the sampat, sheeling to start up a blog, and now it's jingyi's turn! I can't wait to read about their life in sg! YUHOO=)

btw, I'm now ready for assignments, I have to say I need to focus, really do, cos I can't afford any failures as I have already deferred one semester after joining the competition, still not regretting. lucky for me.

so.... PRAY=)

Lelong lelong

There were altogether three cars goin to Connaught night market jus now,
supposed to be 'one gang', how cool is that? HAHA.
realized it's pretty hard to 'shop' in a group of 13 people,
so at last, we r divided into three groups,
btw, thanks wendy, andrew n zhiyuan for bringing us there.=)

tomorrow's plan is to... Sunway Lagoon-ing! haha=)
hope we don't turn into charcoal by evening.
n rueyhwa, make sure that 'fated' something won't come to you again. wohoo.
after that, the charcoals d be goin... IT's GONA BE A FUN DAY!

will post some photos when they r transferred.

(currently 'residing' at SS15, Subang, with Miss Rebecca, thanks szeyee for providing us shelter, one of the essentials of living)

Cut the fringe!

Finally after days of torture (of the fringe poking my eyes),
I got to get the scissors from wanzhen~ WUHOO.

BUT, the sad part is, I think I cut it a lil too short.'HAIZ.

O yeah, and HAPPY 17th BDAY to the scissors' owner!

Stay cheerful all the time, SMILE yoh=) you know we <3 you.

Ended. no.

Just four months ago,
together we started the journey our dreams,
can't believe how time flies.

It has really ended.
On the 25th July 2009.

I got to say I have not regretted joining this and knowing you guys,
should I emphasize on the friendship i have found in there,
that's one of the biggest part of my achievement from it,
cos from you guys,
I learn more about music,
you guys who are more experienced were willing to guide me through out the training days.

What I actually wanted to say is,
I'm glad that after the competition,
we are still keeping in touch=)
and I am happy for those who have achieved their goal,
for the others who are still working hard for it,
keep it up,
I believe chances are given to those who put in effort,
one day you will get it.

For me, I should start focusing in studies
two more years to graduation,
I have no idea if singing is all i have been wanting for,
so yeah, directionless, still.
I felt stupid when I'm the only one who raised my hand when the producer asked 'who din come for this competition to achieve ur 'singer dream'?'
I should try to think thoroughly about it.

Btw, I hope things won't change after all these.
It'd be awesome if everything remained unchanged,
it might be hard, but yeah. I WISH.



some random photos from phone.

END. off to zzzz. nites.

currently...

currently,

eating since I woke up but at the same time thinking when can i start dieting
viewing which bag to buy for 21st bday
listening to some english songs for practice
thinking if I should go Aussie for 1 yr or 1.5 yr

R.I.P Yasmin Ahmad

Well I know I'm a lil slow, but still,
can't believe she has passed away, me & my coursemates had just listened to her talk last year in Taylors main campus. =(

R.I.P to Yasmin Ahmad
(who had been creative force in both advertising and film industry, and won awards locally and internationally. )

ASQ'09 Finals: Proud of you guys!

For more videos of ASQ'08 n 09, type 'hitolife2008' in youtube.

Tryin it out

After spending some time changing the blogskin,
putting up the links once agen (tiring~) FINALLY DONE!
I think I deserve to do some lazy works (what the.. ). combine pics! thanks chyi.
more to come.

yeah I've 'accomplished' most of the them on the To Do list.

Outings with high skul frens,
pat-ing, crapping.

beach!

easyway pudding milk tea!
Excapade, several times =S

beauty needs beauty sleep. WUUUUHOOO

p.s after changin to this blogskin, I guess u guys will stop scoldin my pity little Dalmatian in the previous pink blogskin. The little bird up there is undeniably cute rite? HAHA=)

BEAUTY is back. ok, more photos.=)

yan's bday celeb!

'drawing' session!
miri!


airport, farewell!
beloved mom n dad!

food! ying suang chiao yin!


childhood frens!bday dinner!
sleepover!
swim!
farewell/ pasar malam!

miaooo!
n that girl with tudung is the owner.

too bad Dancing Comp which is held annually is either cancelled or postponed this yr=S

2 wks hols is SHORT! I regretted for not goin back earlier after competition. HAH.
okay. I shouldn't start complaining. =)



and I'm back home at last.

SHORT-NESS (shenny, 2009)

short holiday. i can 'feel' holiday only when it's in bru.
sieeen. I don't remember what I've done in the past 16 days.
DARN. it's time for me to go back already. I haven't had enough fun! ARGH...

can't say i'm totally satisfied with what i've done this time back,
something regretful have been 'accidentally' done,
yet most of them r fine, just fine, except THAT..

so, yup. pray PRAY PRAY again.
hope everything goes fine this time.
i know i need luck for all of the new things coming this time back.

Tears don't help

Some things are just meant to keep to myself,
sharing them might make things worse,
can't believe it could still influence me in some ways atm,
it has been ten thousand years gosh.

it's just so much torture when it leaves and comes back to you again,
it's just hard to delete this particular file in the memory,
maybe it's not yet deleted in the recycle bin,
or it's being retrieved, in any ways.

things should be taken up with responsibility,
and learning to trust or believe is something I must do to let me feel better
accepting the truth and letting it go would lead me to a better life.
I trust, I believe,
I swear I will stand up from this,
I will not let myself fall into this again.